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So, you think we don’t need as much medicine as we take.

Content note: Suicide, medical talk, dysphoria, ablism

Let me tell you about my medical conditions.

1. I have a propensity for esophageal ulcers. I was born with a deformity. The valve from my stomach to my esophagus doesn’t close all the way. On top of that, I have a sliding hiatal hernia. That means the top part of my stomach will sometimes slide up into my esophagus. I have frequent heartburn and acid reflux. Left untreated, I will end up in the hospital or dead. For this, I need antacids.

2. I have hormonal gender dysphoria. Without treatment, my mental state gets so bad that I can’t stand it, and get extremely suicidal. Without treatment, I would kill myself. I came close a couple of times. The knife was on my wrist. I need anti-androgens and estrogen. ( I need additionaltreatment for genital based gender dysphoria, but I can handle that without killing myself for now.)

3. I have migraine headaches that can last 4 to 8 hours and be so debilitating that all I can do is curl up in a ball in a dark quiet room. I need painkillers to treat this. (and I can’t take too many because of the digestive system problems)

4. I have chronic pain from joints, nerves, and muscles. Some days I can’t even get out of the bed to get food. I usually don’t bother taking pain killers, because they are minimally effective, and irritate my acid reflux. I also don’t want them to become less effective for migraines. But I will take painkillers for this when absolutely necessary.

5. I have asthma. Without treatment when I was younger, I would be dead.

6. I have various allergies. Some of these are severe. Without treatment, I would die. For this, I need anti-histamines.

You think we’re taking too many medicines? I have friends with diabetes that need insulin. Friends with PTSD, anxiety disorders, depression, and other medical conditions that they need treatment  for. Do you want us to stop taking the medicines that are keeping us alive?


April first, no joking matter

1. this isn’t a joke or a prank

2. I fucking hate april fools day.





7. It’s never “just a joke.”

Thank you for your time.

The things you take for granted.

So, I’ve been crutching it up, not giving a fuck, and living life in the slow lane. I went to get something to eat for breakfast/lunch at Jason’s deli in order to take my Meds, cause cooking is hard on crutches and I thought I would save myself a little trouble. Unfortunately, they have one of those “pour your own drink” drink machines. I never thought about just how problematic those things are. First, If I had been in a wheelchair, I couldn’t have even reached the damn thing. As it was, I had to fill my glass about a third of the way, put my finger inside the glass and pinch it while crutching over to my table. Yeah, those drink machines are really bad. If you ever design a restaurant, don’t do that shit. Fortunately, the person who brought my food over to my table offered to refill my water for me. That wasn’t restaurant policy, they just did it out of kindness. Oh, and can we just make automatic sliding doors standard. Having to get through those heavy doors on crutches is a real pain in the ass. I think people who design stores and restaurants should have to go around on wheelchairs and crutches for a little while so they can see what it’s like.